Sedated
I sit staring blankly at the computer screen before my eyes.
I cant even type straight
it doesn't matter
nothing matters now except
except that vague consciousness that I have grown so accustomed to
that state of mental lethargy that can only be reached with heavy doses of chemicals
self created, natural, man made, it doesnt matter
whatever makes the senses numb
dull
yet unwaiveringly acute
the tv chatters about nothing in the distance
blah blah bullshit and sugar
who knows
my mind is to ... to care
theres supposed to be a word there
but i cant remember
cant focus
so tired, and its only three O' clock
sometimes twenty two feels so old
